Mom started loosing her hair today. It was weird. I knew she had cancer but up until now she looked fine. By fine I mean “not sick”. I am so used to seeing the cancer patient on tv with no hair, the woman with the turban on her head or the baseball cap/dew rag combo out in public that meant “Yes I am a cancer patient”. It is a strange thing to hear-“Mom started losing her hair today-she said it came out in clumps in the shower”. But to actually see her with the stray blonde hairs covering her shoulders-ones she didn’t even know she had lost yet-is completely different. She was up eating and talking-had even gotten out of bed to eat the delicious meatloaf she had ordered from “Room Service”. I kept trying to look in her eyes, her face, while she talked but I couldn’t stop staring at her hair. It didn’t look patchy like one would imagine. It was still mostly there-like she hadn’t lost any at all. A little thin, but normal to me. Then I saw her back and shoulders and the light was hitting them just right to show the slight yellow gold tint of stray hairs. Like ones you would pick off your sisters jacket in line at Target. I think now I have finally accepted the fact that my mother is sick.
Fuck you cancer. I hate you.
Eghads, Katie... I'm WITH YA GIRL!!!
ReplyDeleteHey Katie, think of all the fun we can have looking for wigs! Especially for the "Mexican Restaurant" one!
ReplyDeleteFor your edification, a friend of ours had two wigs. One for all the time, one for eating in Mexican restaurants so her good one wouldn't smell all the time. Isn't that just BRILLIANT?????
I love you, it does suck, but we'll get through this together and be way better, IN ALL WAYS, on the other side of this.
i don't know what else to say except that i love you and her! see you soon. mccall
ReplyDeleteI couldn't agree more Katie...fuck cancer
ReplyDeleteDitto Katie Mac! I love y'all! Hang in there!!
ReplyDeleteHey Kaite,
ReplyDeleteThe "F" word is one I tell my children and my students NEVER to use----HOWEVER, I find that it is "most appropriate" in expressing exactly how I feel some (many) times. So, thanks Katie, for saying---in print---exactly what many (if not all) of us are thinking!
On a good note, when Ed's hair fell out, it came back as a beautiful head of curly grey hair. Just think of this as a step in the process of getting a new "hair-do."
Penny, I can't wait to see all the colorful scarves and hats you find. Maybe the "pair and a spare" people can knit you one.....
Love and prayers,
Glenda
Oops, guess I hit the wrong keys when typing Katie.....
ReplyDeleteSorry, Katie.
Where the h _ _ _ is spell check???????
Glenda
Penny,
ReplyDeleteDid you get the video clip through your email? I hope it made you laugh!
It is NINE degrees here (same as when I left work last night) but less wind today. Yesterday it was 21 degrees, but with 50 mph winds - can't even calculate the wind chill. You cannot put on enough clothes to be warm.
Sue
I long for the days when women wore those fabulous hats - berets, flowers, even ten-gallon! Who cares, let's start a revolution - wear a hat today! Love,
ReplyDeleteKatie,
ReplyDeleteVery well said.
xoxo to you Ms. Penny.
Dear Katie, My name is Elizabeth of www.creativebreahting.blogspot.com I have been writing stories for a year now that your mother says she enjoys. I did not know that I could write when I began, and at times I feel as though some other hand has penned my words. Your mother wrote to me that "I wished she had stories to tell like Elizabeth". The gift of these words to me is no small thing. They have become the purpose of my life. Your words today are so honest and so beautiful and are so important. I wish you both a Happy New Year, Elizabeth
ReplyDeleteYou tell 'em sister!
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